I need to blog, it has been forever. I am scared though, so scared. I need a placement for next year, and that is all that is going through my brain. I have so much that I am so passionate about, but I feel they are meant to take second place. Say for example... "Take Your Pills". It is a "documentary" on Netflix. How To ADHD (YouTube) gives a balanced response. Mine involves many four letter words. I don't know how to retain my passion into something intelligent. I know what I want to tell the world - I want to tell them about my experience with medication. About my daughter and what I think for her future. I want to talk about my own experience just trying to get the medication. I even have people prepared to talk to me from the #whyitakemypills movement on twitter. But it is all too personal. Too raw. No-one will hire that. No-one will publish that. (This may also have crossed over into my other issue where I have to write an article for my next assignment). I've just watched The Last Jedi. I want to write about how my heart is breaking having lost Carrie Fisher - a woman I have never known, but the loss of makes me sob. I don't know what to do. Do I blog about what is in my heart and soul? Do I work out what to blog about to get a job? Do I just empty my brain? I just don't know. All I do know, is the world has dimmed since Carrie Fisher left us.